Don't loose Heart!

 I would have lost heart, unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. Wait on the LORD; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the LORD!

This is a very difficult thing..waiting ,especially when you feel like you are walking through, and filled with sand ! I heard another autoimmune  sufferer call it the molten lead syndrome ...you feel like someone has poured it into all your limbs and your brain! Even your eyelids are so heavy you have to struggle to keep them open! But wait, dig deep..even if you are angry ..go directly to God ! He created the universe ,He can handle whatever you can dish out! I Know this after reading the bible for myself, I saw that God is in the healing business . Ask Jesus to be real to you, if you don't have a bible go on line and look up healing verses.Take one verse that speaks to you and think about it..especially when you are in a bad place ..ask God to reveal what he has for you in this situation..we take medicines that we know have no cure..Give God at least equal time to show you his love and peace. I can't explain why some people get complete healing and others don't , but I do know I have a peace that is giving me strength now ,and I will wait expectantly for my body to be in health even as my soul prospers!                                                                                                                                     Check out this video on YouTube:

The Rebel's Guide to Joy - Charlotte Elliott
http://youtu.be/yrudw6SEYic

Strength and Courage

                      My soul melts from heaviness;Strengthen me according to Your word. Psalm 119:28
It's late and I am not sleeping and it's not because I am not tired ..it's that wired tired  and shaking inside you get .Yes pain  makes me cranky ! I am having a hard time this week and I am looking to God to strengthen me . I love the complete honesty in the bible. There  are some  soul baring things written in there and that's what I need to hear the honest truth.  I am struggling with being me this week. I hate the way I feel, look and what these diseases do to my body.Thats The honest Truth and I am so glad that I have a relationship with Jesus and He listens to me. I don't have to pretend with Him that nothing is wrong! When I am honest with Him and I tell Him the truth about how I feel He never Fails to comfort me and gives me the Grace I need to not be a complete beast to myself and others.  I want to have a heart of gratitude and that can only happen when I rest,wait, casting all my burdens on Him. http://youtu.be/5SBLyQ8slw8                                                                                                                       click on the above link to hear Justin Upton sing I will wait..it always makes me feel better when i am blue!

Autoimmune Hope line

That hope we have as an anchor of the soul--an anchor that can neither break nor drag. It passes in behind the veil.

                                                                                                                                                                      Remember you are not your disease! You are someone who God loves very much. Don't make friends with your sickness..I always say I was diagnosed with or I don't have it , it's trying to have me. It may seem silly but it isn't . I have this Hope ..not a wishful  thought..a confident expectation of good..I may not know  or understand everything but God does ..and if he says He has a plan to prosper me and a plan for good than it is true .So I hold on, I remind myself that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me...so have Hope..Believe that you shall see Favor and Blessing! This is not easy..but hold on.. He is strong when I am weak..
http://youtu.be/0CgYgVB7MmU  Christ Alone Cornerstone-HillSong

Even as your Soul Prospers

 The more time I spend Aone with God I understand the importance of having a good attitude.  This Dosent mean we become huge failures if we have a bad day or loose it, I am talking about in general. All battles are won or lost first in the mind..so I am using my down time to feed my mind...and in turn my spirit with good things! I try to limit my talking about symptoms..concentrate on what I can do that given moment or day,because we all know things can change in an instant! My husband calls it hitting my wall...it's when you feel like you are a balloon that someone has stuck a pin in and you deflate within minutes...I hate that! Listen to what you are saying to yourself and others..pay attention to what you are thinking! This has been really important to me..when I wake up and I start to feel something I start to hear in my mind ..another day of this..now I quickly Change that thought to something positive..God is with me, God loves me..thank you for the sleep I did get!  Believe me I am not little Mary Sunshine 24/7...but I can tell you this has made a huge difference for me..

   

Finding Joy in Suffering...

You know something big is wrong when making a peanut butter and jelly sandwich for one of your kids is a monumental task and just the thought of it makes you cry!